live for exam? or study.. or wat.. feel useless lar.. sometimes i do wanna hurt myself and just let myself feel the pain. but i din do anything lar.. coz i need to think of my parents too. noone knows that michelle actually have this kind of thinking.. i guess most ppl will think that im a hapi go lucky person lar.. maybe i am.. i always look calm.. emotionless.. muka sombong.. or very garang? my frens will know that im a crazy person, i change everyday. today im hapi tomoro i sad, morning hapi hapi aftanoon stress up. i always talk non sense in front of my frens, like khar yee said, im very fan wor~ haha... sometimes im super optimistic, sometimes i really think that im useless lar.. i was once a very very negative person.. didn talk much, always murung, no frens.. now much better d lar.. but i still have doubts on myself.. what is the truth of me? when will i know? haha.. the person i love has really dissapointed me very much.. what to do.. need to accept da fact d.. no1 can help me other than myself.